I have a confession. You know how some woman just look right at home with a baby in their arms? They cradle it, cooing and talking and the babies face lights up in pleasure while they gaze lovingly and confidently into the face of their holder? That's not me. In fact, even well into my twenties my friends would race off to find a camera if I happened to be caught in the awkward situation of holding a baby. I would always decline politely or hold a baby briefly and uncomfortably, while the baby would take one look at me and start squirming (or screaming). I am not naturally maternal. I know next to nothing about babies, toddlers or children. I have never babysat in my life and would quite frankly probably freak out if I was asked to! I have never changed a nappy. Yep, you read right! I wouldn't have a clue! I'm the girl at the baby shower who puts the nappy on the teddy bear the wrong way around or jabs the safety pin through the teddy's leg. It's not that I don't like children (obviously since I'm trying to have one!) but I am just awkward. I didn't have any little brothers or sisters or grow up around any baby cousins, so it doesn't come naturally to me. In fact, just the other day my dad told me that he hadn't even realised I ever wanted children until we confessed about our fertility issues! I think it's safe to say I am getting better though, just through spending time with my nephews and niece plus friends children. I am learning that they are really just little human beings and nothing to be scared of. But I still haven't changed a nappy. Plenty of time for that in the future!! I hear when you become a mum it comes naturally. I sure hope so or I'm going to be in big trouble!