I just had one of those moments. You know that ones where you think about something and then 'ping!' I just realised that this will be my 3RD IVF cycle in one year! I mean I knew that but I hadn't really thought about it properly until now. Whatever happened to IVF being the miracle cure? Celebrities would have you believe it's easy and works every time. Only a select few even admit to using it but the mainstream opinion is always 'Oh, well if I can't get pregnant naturally then I will just do IVF' Like it's a definate cure. It's not. It's physically and emotionally draining. We don't all have live in nurses on standby to give us our injections so all we have to do is relax while the staff prepare healthy meals and we don't have to worry about a thing. They have endless supplies of money so finances aren't an issue. If only!
In reality it is alot more complicated than jabbing yourself and then voila BABY! A long IVF cycle takes just over 65 days from beginning to end. We put ourselves into menopause and experience all the symptoms that brings with it - hot flushes, mood swings, fatigue, headaches. For three weeks we stab ourselves with needles then for two more weeks we stab ourselves with needles TWICE a day. To a strict military schedule. One little slip and it could be over. Socialising becomes difficult because you might have to inject yourself and the drugs have to be kept in the fridge so you often can't go out and then friends stop inviting you (especially if you are keeping your infertility a secret). Which equals isolation. Then of course there is the egg collection and the waiting and the 2WW to find out if it's worked. Torture. I know I make it sound really bad and when you're actually doing it then I guess it's not that bad but I just hate the assumption that it's an easy fix, because in reality it's alot harder than that. I wish there were more celebrities willing to step up and tell it like it really is instead of lying through their teeth and proclaiming it was 'all natural' or that doing it was 'easy'. Celine Dion is the only one I can think of off the top of my head who is actually open about the difficulties.
Even people close to me are naive about the realities of IVF and seemed surprised it didn't work. But here I am approaching IVF#3. And still no bubba. I have been on this rollarcoaster for nearly THREE years. And I didn't expect that. I really didn't think I would be the last one of my forum friends to be still waiting for a baby. But here I am and I guess if I have to be here then I am going to write it how it is. I try to keep my blog amusing as I do tend to live my life with glass half full but sometimes it can be exhausting and I don't want to make it seem like this isn't hard.
Now, I just hope I can bring the happy ending that everyone is hoping for!