OFFICIALLY PUPO!

Thank you, thank you, thank you for all the words of support today. I appreciate it so much as I was feeling a little fragile this morning. As you know, I decided to go back to work and when I got there I had the call that they were going to do a 3 day transfer so I couldn't stay. Now, even though my going to work when I had arranged annual leave was to do them a favour as we had one guy away and another sick (but at work) my boss gave me the guilt trip when I said I had to leave which really pissed me off and was the straw that broke the camels back so to speak. He knows it too because after I returned from the bathroom after a little cry, he was all nice, asking how it all worked, wishing me luck etc. Grrr . . . so typical of him though, speak first and then realise later what an ass he was. I shouldn't be surprised though, that's just him and having worked with him for 9 years (9 years! Holy cow!) I know what he can be like. 

ANYWAY, enough out of the venting corner! I am officially PUPO! For those of you who don't know what PUPO means it is 'Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise'. And I am feeling good. We have a beautiful perfect little 8 cell emby onboard (nice even cells too) and the rest are being taken through until Day 5 to see if we can get anything to freeze. Of the 5 remaining we have one that hasn't divided from 2 cells (and isn't likely to), one that is 3 cells (was 2 yesterday so you never know!), one 5, one 7 and one 8 cell (that wasn't as nice as the other one). She thinks there is potential for the 5, 7 and 8 cell to become blastocysts so please keep your fingers crossed! The way my clinic operates is that they don't do a freeze all. They used to but found they would be freezing embryos they pretty much knew wouldn't become a pregnancy so they now only freeze those that they consider 'viable' as to avoid putting woman through transfer after transfer with embies that they don't feel are ever going to create a baby and end up putting the woman through so much unnecessary disppointment and grief. So please pray for mine to become nice and strong and viable!

As for this little one, transfer went very smoothly. My FS was the one who did transfer (don't you just hate having to have a full bladder! Soooo uncomfortable being in such a precarious position and busting to go to the loo!) and as we left he said to the HG that it was looking really good this time. So I'm going to hold onto that! We went to lunch at my favourite pub and then I came home a blobbed on the couch for a few hours and watched 'When in Rome' and 'Valentine's Day'. 

So, as of right now I am feeling relaxed and positive but watch this space . . . let's see how long that lasts! D-day is Monday 25th October.

Wow, 3 blog entries in one day! Is that a record?!