Sunday, October 24, 2010

ONE MORE SLEEP!

That's right ladies, just one more night to go! There is nothing more I can do and nothing can change the outcome. I have done everything I can to get a positive result (including resting up for three days after transfer) and if it didn't stick then it wasn't meant to be. I can't make an embryo that wasn't destined to become a baby, become a baby, no matter what I do.

I really don't know whether I am or I'm not. It's tough this not knowing, it's beginning to feel like being stuck in limbo. I know tomorrow is going to be tough if it's a BFN. I'll be devastated. BUT, I'll get back up again, climb back on the bandwagon and keep going because I can't NOT be a mum. This is our dream and we will achieve it one way or another. I have come to the acceptance that we may only be able to have one child and that's ok with us. 

My inkling is that it will be another BFN but perhaps that is because BFN's are all I have ever known during this long and torturous 3 year quest to motherhood. I could be wrong. I hope I'm wrong!

So in advance - THANK YOU for all of your well wishes and support! I promise I will be back to update you tomorrow one way or another.  It is either going to be an incredible high or an incredible low. Please keep your fingers crossed for us!

28 comments:

  1. Can't wait to hear the result tomorrow! Everything is crossed for you. xxoo

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  2. good luck haidee, this last night will be a long one.
    I hope hope hope that this is it for you and you get to spend the next 8 months thinking all about baby clothes, nursery colours and labour instead of another IVF cycle.
    Sending every bit of positive I have your way.

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  3. fingers, toes, eyes, and anything else i can cross, i have them crossed for you. best wishes and know you WILL survive this no matter what.

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  4. Fingers crossed for you tomorrow. Stay strong!

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  5. oh my goodness. i hate this part of the wait- the end! it could be so awesome and also could be not-so-awesome. i'll be thinking of you and hoping that it all goes well.

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  6. Fingers crossed and prayers sent your way!

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  7. Good luck tomorrow!! I'll keep my fingers crossed for your BFP!

    ICLW

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  8. Fingers, toes, guts, hair, everything and anything crossed for you hon. Good luck!

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  9. Good luck, good luck, good luck!!! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

    ICLW # 13

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  10. Fingers crossed, prayers are said, good vibes going your way!!! Tomorrow may just go down as one of the best days of your life! Hoping for a happy post tomorrow with good news! :)

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  11. I just wanted to tell you about a comment I read after I found out our third ivf ended in a chemical pregnancy
    life is what you make it, always has been, always will be
    You will be ok if it doesnt work and obviously you will be awesome if it does work, in ten years time you will look back at this particular moment and be able to see it for what it is without all the emotional stuff.
    I am thinking of you xx

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  12. I really hope you have good news tomorrow!! I hope you will have the most wonderful surprise.

    You've been so strong. Don't give up.

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  13. Good luck tomorrow, fingers so tightly crossed for you!

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  14. Thinking of you and wishing you all the best for tomorrow!! Stay strong!! x x x

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  15. Best wishes Hun, I really hope i jump on here tomorrow night and read of your BFP. Will be thinking of u tomorrow & sending thoughts, prayers & positive vibes across the international waters.

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  16. All the best Haidee
    Jill ;)

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  17. I hope you get the news you want tomorrow! And I hope you can get some sleep tonight! This is my first time visiting your blog...just by reading this post I can hear your positivity and the strength you have. Best wishes for a BFP.
    ~Sara
    ICLW #109

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  18. Good luck to you!!!!!! We are here for you either way.

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  19. Keeping everything crossed for you!!!!

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  20. Great attitude! Crossing everything & hoping to read good news very soon!

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  21. I have everything crossed for you. I hope you get a fantastic beta tomorrow. I know what a stressful time this is for you. Sending you lots of luck.

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  22. I'm praying for you and that well-deserved BFP!

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  23. oh man, i can relate!!! i'm sending you good thoughts!! keep us updated!!!

    ~Elaine, ICLW

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  24. I have everything crossed for you and I am sending as much baby dust you way as I can!!!

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  25. Good luck Haidee! You should get the results earlier hopefully as it is a Public Holiday! I'm sure I had a BT sometime in Easter on a Public Holiday. I had no symptoms at all with Joshua so you never know, especially being on the Progynova. GOOD LUCK!

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  26. Hi!! Stopping by for the ICLW!! Good luck in this IVF cycle! I am starting my first (and hopefully only) this coming cycle!

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  27. I totally understand about not being able to imagine anything other than a BFN because that's all you have ever known. I'm getting ready to do IVF #2 in December. I've had over 4 years of BFN month after month. I can't imagine a BFP or being pregnant. I hope it happens but the ability to dream, hope & picture everything happening becomes harder and harder every day. I hope the next 2 weeks goes by quickly for your.

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