Today I came across this post on 'The Infertility Doula' one of the many blogs I follow that really resonated with me. We are all going through the same struggle and yet there ARE hidden lines even within the infertility community between the different groups - IUI vs IVF, first vs secondary infertility, those who concieved first IVF cycle vs those who took more than one attempt to get their BFP and the list goes on. You only need to go on infertility forums to also notice the invisible lines forming. I thought it was a fantastic post and full of truths that we don't like to admit. I will step up and admit that I am jealous of those woman who are lucky enough to concieve first IVF cycle. Do I think they are any less 'deserving'? Of course not! I think we are all as deserving as one another to have a baby. But I do think once you have tried and failed an IVF attempt you do go into a slightly different category on a subconcious level as you have then experienced the pain of an IVF cycle NOT working and the crushing hope that comes with it. We all want to think we will be one of the lucky ones but when it doesn't happen the pain of failing what is supposed to be a 'miracle' cure is heartbreaking. Sometimes I feel like I am right back at the beginning of TTC up against the girls who concieve first month trying! Infertility is a funny thing - it really can make us into a green eyed monster! Albeit a nice green eyed monster who is still happy for everyone but so incredibly sad for themselves!
Every day I take some time to read some of the other infertility blogs that I have discovered since I started blogging. They are blogs written by woman all over the world who all have one thing in common - their struggle to become a mother. We all have different roads to travel to get there - some are shorter than others, some start younger than others, some take invasive treatments while others are less invasive. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I might shed a tear, sometimes I nod along in agreement and sometimes (and I love these times the most!) I get to offer my congratulations to couples who finally achieve their miracle.
This is my third month of doing ICLW (International Comment Leaving Week) and I look forward to it every month in anticipation of the fantastic woman I will meet, all on their own journey's to motherhood (if you are not a blogger yourself but are interested in reading some of these amazing blogs you can click on the red ICLW logo on the right and get taken to the list) Next month ICLW will fall around the time I find out what the results of this IVF cycle are and hopefully it will be an exciting time full of promise!
Happy commenting week everyone!