You know how some days you see a pregnant woman walking down the footpath towards you, or a woman pushing a stroller you feel that quick pang of immense jealousy? Well, I think I am losing it because I am starting to feel the same way about people carrying takeaway coffee cups. Yep, you read that right. I see people everywhere walking along with their hands wrapped around one of those deliciously warm coffee cups filled with liquid gold and I just want to snatch it away from them and pour it down the drain. If I can't have coffee then neither can anyone else. And I swear they all look so smug sipping their morning coffee's. Instead of sipping on my morning coffee I get to jab myself with needles instead! I am so caffiene envious that I actually had one yesterday afternoon and OMG! It was sooooo good! I miss it so much.
I have been absolutely terrible on the diet front. Given that these drugs make us gain weight anyway I was determined not to let my comfort eating habits get the better of me but I am losing my will power. These down reg drugs are making me feel so nauseous and the only thing that fixes it? Nope, not coffee but those damn sausage rolls again. The last few days I have put up with it but today I had one and I fear I am on a downward spiral. Especially with the chocolate bar I also ate for afternoon tea. The whole chocolate bar. It appears the drugs have made me go off what would be considered the 'good' food and crave the bad. What's a girl to do? At least the pill part of this cycle finishes tomorrow and perhaps that might help me to regain my sanity. We all know that tiny little pill has the power to mess with our minds and bodies. I have been remarkably lucky this time around but ugh, these down reg injections are starting to make me a tad miserable.
It really is amazing what these damn drugs can do to a person's body and it does seem like somebody's idea of a sick joke to take you off caffiene just as your hormones are driving your mood to new heights. Wishing you the very best of luck with your cycle - here's hoping it brings you your baby you have been waiting for.
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Stopping by for ICLW. Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeleteare you not drinking coffee because you shouldn't with IVF..or are you just doing in general because of ttc? i must say that i'm pretty ignorant when it comes to these sorts of things.
ReplyDeleteand don't worry about the whole chocolate bar thing -- i've also been downing a whole chocolate bar some days when i get home from school (either that or about 6 chocolate biscuits!) and i just have to remind myself that there are some parts of life that we need to enjoy..and for me, chocolate is one of them!
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This made me smile! Sorry about the no coffee. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by my blog! I have to say, I don't have coffee jealousy, but I do miss my Cherry Cokes :) I really hope that this cycle makes all that lost coffee worth it!
ReplyDeleteHa! I am drinking a cup of decaf everyday, would you consider that?
ReplyDeleteI was just noticing last night that the pill is making me fat, what the hell? I hate it. One more day for you! Hooray.
Hiya, here from ICLW (52). Just wanted to say, I lovved the "tips to family and friends" and publicized it on the forum i visit. As for caffeine, even though decaf is an insult to coffee, have you tried it to ease your coffee cravings? Munching on trans fat filled salty food has been my favorite form of therapy for all my disappointments :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for your support and for welcoming me to the IF community.
ReplyDeleteI hear you about the jealousy thing, both towards pregnant women, and people eating/drinking thinks that are off my diet (wheat and dairy free right now). It really sucks when the rest of the world is enjoying the one thing you can't have.
I totally know what you mean about those horribly smug coffee drinkers!!! Great post! Send you lots of good vibes.
ReplyDeleteI don't have thing for coffee, but I feel the EXACT same way about chocolate! I don't know where I'd be without it. LOL!
ReplyDeleteBest wishes on your IVF cycle!
ICLW
Hahaha, you're cracking me up Haidee! Jealous of coffee drinkers...you're hilarious! Not long now hun, and then you can have some more of that delicious 'liquid gold'. Poor thing. The things we do, eh?
ReplyDeleteAlso loving your dedication to sausage rolls. There's something about a sausage roll...even though we know how bad it is for us, we still eat them. And go back for more!
You'll be rewarded for cutting these things out, I just know it! xoxo
Stopping by from ICLW! Best wishes on your cycle!
ReplyDeleteI know it's a little different circumstances but girl, I'm right there with ya! I can't drink tea OR coffee unless it's decaf bc of headaches but every single morning I see warm cups of coffee EVERYWHERE at work!!! I want one sooooo bad!!!! AH! ...and it's not for the taste, LOL, noooooo, it's all for the caffeine! :(
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