I'm back at work on Thursday and I must admit that I am slightly terrified. I always knew I would have to go back to work for financial reasons and I have made peace with that (I figure there is no point on dwelling on something that can't be changed) and even though a small part of me is actually looking forward to having those few days a week back in the world of adults and being able to have some adult conversation again, I am a wee bit scared of leaving Cohen. He is going to my mother-in-laws and I know he will be absolutely fine but I'm having abandonment issues. Or rather, I feel like he might have some abandonment issues. Even though he is only 20 weeks old and therefore probably too young to feel like that, it plays on my mind that he has been with me since the day he was born and now all of a sudden out of nowhere he will be dropped off somewhere else one morning and the world as he knows it will be turned upside down as mummy will be leaving him and not coming back for hours. And hours. And hours. I'm also a teeny tiny bit nervous about getting back into the real world and bursting my happy little baby bubble.
Good luck Thursday! It's hard to make the transition but you'll realize how much you missed the "adult" world and the way his eyes will light up when you see him in the afternoon will make up for guilt you feel leaving him! ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI know how it feels. I left Callum with my mum when he was 6 months old. It's been 18 months now since I've been at work part time and looking back - it was harder on me than on him. I appreciate my financial contribution to the household as well as the adult connection with my co-workers, however there's not a moment that goes by that I miss him and feel guilty. I hope the transition goes well for you and Cohen. Just more kisses and cuddles when you pick him up!
ReplyDeleteI hope your first few days back go well. Good luck and hugs!
ReplyDeleteDid you manage to get four days a week? I think you will be fine and as the lady above said start to enjoy some "adult" time but man it will hurt! You poor love. Just give him extra cuddles and kisses so he knows just how much he is love (as if he doesn't already)
ReplyDeleteWill be thinking of you hon. Certainly not an easy thing to do and you are right, the adult interaction will be great for you - doesn't stop you from missing him like crazy though! xx
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the working mum world. Juggling and multitasking can now go on your resume. Hope you have ironed your superwoman outfit, undies over your tights does take a but to get used to.
ReplyDeleteLeaving your baby is damn hard and I bawled at Kindywhen I first took B, with his big blue eyes staring at me. Makes me tears now. But you have the help of family, and a mum in law that LOVES your son. He will be cared for so well and with so much love.
Be proud of how far you have come...