First of all, thank you so much for all your responses to my last post. It made me feel heaps better to read all the supportive words and also to know that I am not alone. I am currently at home sick with one hell of a cold which I caught off a workmate on Friday. He was supposed to go home but then we got crazy busy and then last night I started sneezing and my nose started running and I thought 'Uh oh'. A sleepless night to follow and today I feel pretty bloody miserable if I'm honest, but just made myself some chicken soup and drinking my lemon and honey drinks and hoping I can kick its ass before it gets too bad. I gave my midwife a call to ask her what I am allowed to take for a cold while pregnant and after discussing it she asked me how I was getting on in general, to which I told her the truth - that I was feeling a bit anxious about things. So she said she would pop round this afternoon to see me and we could listen to the heartbeat and have a chat. I love my midwife, she is such a caring and lovely woman and I know chatting with her about how I'm feeling and hearing bubs heartbeat will make me feel so much better. In fact, I was so relieved when she said she was going to come around and see me that as soon as I hung up the phone I promptly burst into tears. Hormones getting the better of me I think!
I also think I now know why these worries have started creeping in. We are finding out the sex at our 20 week scan in less than two weeks which is making it feel more real and I think I am only just now starting to really believe we are going to be having a baby. I think I still felt somewhat in shock that I was pregnant and now closing in on the half way mark I am having the sudden realisation that in 5 months time it is going to be ME giving birth and ME holding MY baby and becoming a mummy at long last. Given the way I have been feeling, I think it is even more the right decision for us to find out the sex as it might be just what I need to really believe it. I know this may sound crazy to some of you, but that's how I'm feeling. We had a breakthrough through when the HG and I went out to the baby shop on Sunday and put a pram on layby!! I had been adament I didn't want to spend too much but in the end I opted for a Mountain Buggy Swift which is a bit in the higher price range but not over the top. I pushed it and fell in love with how it steered! Haha. So we now have one big baby item in the process of being paid off. Next is the cot.
Will let you know how the MW appointment goes this afternoon!
Oh, and for those of you interested or new readers who don't know my full story, my success story has been featured on Krissi's blog 'Stress Free Infertility' which you can read by clicking here.
EDITED TO ADD: I just had my visit from my MW who gave me a huge hug and told me she is happy to pop round anytime. Bubs was moving around heaps which was making the heartbeat quite hard to hear but everything is definately all fine. My bump is measuring exactly 18 weeks (which is what I am today) so all in all my worrying was for nothing. As predicted. And wouldn't you know it - 20 minutes after she left I started getting booted by the baby again. Always the way! Right, off to drink my next lemon and honey drink and take a nap.
EDITED TO ADD: I just had my visit from my MW who gave me a huge hug and told me she is happy to pop round anytime. Bubs was moving around heaps which was making the heartbeat quite hard to hear but everything is definately all fine. My bump is measuring exactly 18 weeks (which is what I am today) so all in all my worrying was for nothing. As predicted. And wouldn't you know it - 20 minutes after she left I started getting booted by the baby again. Always the way! Right, off to drink my next lemon and honey drink and take a nap.
Ah those lingering effects of infertility trauma. I often wonder if those every go away. :-( Crossing my fingers that they do, and so glad that you've allowed yourself to believe you are going to have a baby and picked up a big baby item! :D
ReplyDeleteSorry you're feeling so wretched, but what an awesome midwife you have!! And how exciting to have one of your big items decided upon and in the process of buying!! :-D
ReplyDeleteNot crazy at all! I found out the sex for the same reason - to relate and make the PG real to me. It's great that you have a wonderful MW and sorry to hear about you being crook, but you're on the money with chicken soup! Get well soon.
ReplyDeleteOh hope you feel better soon love!Your midwife sounds so lovely :) And good on you for splashing out on the pram you want-it's well worth it-you'll be using it a lot so you may as well get one that steers properly!Hope you feel better soon hon <3 xxx
ReplyDeleteBeing sick is the worst when preg! I feel for you xo
ReplyDeleteHope you practised lifting the pram when folded. They weigh a ton! My friends had the mountain buggy and they are room and easy to change bums in on the go! Great choice!! Very proud of you making the purchase, and I hope you had butterfly of excitement amongst the kicks!
Glad to hear all is well sweets!! Jack used to do that to me, stop kicking and then when I started to get really worried used to give me a boot as if to say wake up I'm still here.. All the best for your scan and finding out whether it's a boy or a girl.. xxx Hope you get better soon as well!!!
ReplyDeleteHi there, i have been following your story via internet stalking and was soooo excited when you got your BFP. Anyway, just wanted to say I have a Mountain Buggy for my son and it was one of the best purchases ever. Also, just wanted to say in terms of a cot, not sure what kind you are after, but Touchwood (which are sold in a variety of baby shops) have a factory shop in Tawa - they sell stuff cheaper with hardly any damage (ours was $150 cheaper than retail and had 2 scratches on it -we have put that side against the wall and you would never know)
ReplyDeleteHaidee, forgot to mention, to help you through your pregnancy, you can hire or buy the dopplers to listen to bubs heartbeat any time you want. If I can find one here locally, will get it to you...xo
ReplyDeleteI just read your last post and wanted to say that I felt my bump stalled for a bit too. I think it was mostly due to the fact that I was feeling less bloated...so, I think it's completely normal. I'm glad your MW was able to put your mind at ease!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear everything is going well. Also, just saw your story on "stress free infertility". Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard not to be worried during pregnancy, especially after going through infertility. Finding out the sexes was a huge turning point for me too and I can't wait to hear about your experience!
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